Yesterday I had a good day. It was nice to have a good day because over the past few weeks they had been few and far between. Finally, yesterday it changed. I started the day with a nice walk outside and then took care of some errands before I went to work.
Work was fine, it usually is. It’s my personal time that is always the issue. That is when I struggle with motivation. The simple fact that I took care of some of the errands made a big difference. I also think that the beginning of the day walk is a very good thing. I might have to try and do that more.
I get done with work late in the evening and I’ve been starting to hang out at the bar across the street more often. I live in a small town and it’s really the only place I can socialize. Being in the bar does not seem to be an issue in terms of temptation so it’s been ok. I just drink my Ginger Ale.
What I have been doing is beginning to experiment and practice normal socializing skills. I realize now that when I was drinking I actually did not socialize very much. I knew who most of the other locals were who hung out there every night, but I never sat down and talked with them face to face. Now I am purposely forcing myself to talk with everyone there.
This is different for me. I’ve never been outgoing. I can tell that it is already working. Instead of just being a lump sitting on a stool I am now an integral part of the “regulars”. People don’t just know my name now. They really know who I am. It’s been fun! And then when a stranger comes into the bar I enjoy going over, introducing myself, and getting to know them. That is soooo not like the old me 🙂
So, a lot of things are going well. I’m not drinking. I’ve been interacting more socially instead of hiding, and I feel good about what I’m doing.
The only area I need to keep working hard on is achieving my personal goals. This is where motivation and using my spare time come into play. This area is still difficult. I have dreams of all these tasks I wish to work on during my non work time and I rarely seem to dig into them. I’m going to start easy and just try to work on something small each day to get me into the groove. Just like yesterday when I took care of a few simple tasks and my whole day was better.
Time to wrap up this post. I’m going to go out for a walk. Later I will head back down to the lake for the weekend. Most likely I will be staying at the lake almost every weekend now. It’s close to my job so I save a couple trips back into town.